My new years resolution this year was different than most passing years. I wanted to make over my life essentially. For a long time I’ve always listened to what other people wanted me to do. I became afraid of living because I was so crippled in a sense that I couldn’t make my own decisions without having the approval of others. I was depressed and surrounded by people who brought me down even more. After having a near death experience last year, I realized that I deserve a romance that takes my breath away. I deserve friendships that are worth more than their weight in gold. I deserve to be surrounded by people who accept me and love me genuinely. When you’ve been through as much crap as I’ve been through, you either become used to all that crap, or you start to crave something more than shit.